Friendship

Friendship....What would you do without that one good friend that you tell everything to? what would you do without someone to call the second you had a serious problem or a crazy funny story! I think I take that for granted sometimes.....I have amazing friends that are always there for me.....and I know that! Sadly friendships don't always seem to last. As people change, and get older.....it seems like they always grow apart. I remember how I NEVER thought anything would ever come between me and my ex-best friend. I thought the world would end if we went one day without talking and now....just a year later....It is EXTREMLEY weird if we ever talk. It's also sad when you can't find anything to say to the SAME person that you talked to for 6 hours straight sometimes. I can't blame everything on her even though it was her that got a new life that didnt invovle me. I changed too.....and the sad thing was it wasnt even a sudden BAM we arent friends anymore.....it was a slow sad awkward time where one day I realized....I didnt even care anymore. I mean I missed her....But I missed the old her. I missed our friendship but I didnt really feel like it was even possible to be close again. Dont get me wrong I still love her to death....It wasnt until MONTHS later that I suddenly thought WOW I miss that girl....and then suddenly an overwhelming saddness came over me....Now I know we both just changed....and the path she was taking was not the same path I had choosen for my life. Now I have some amazing new friends, people that are taking the same path and understand me. I have a best friend that I can't imagine not knowing....a friend that is more of a sister and someone I honestly believe I will be friends with forever. I also have some close friends that I can again feel moving away. I don't know how to stop it or what to do. So I am letting God choose. I am going to continue to try to be these peoples friend.....and if they want to be my friend I am going to be here. I am not changing my mind about our friendship and as hard as it is.....I'm letting them do what they want....without seeming like my friends. Friendship takes effort from both people. I can only put so much effort into a friendship before i suddenly realize that maybe we are really growing apart....and maybe just maybe as sad as that is....that's okay. Not saying i'mgoing to stop being anyones friend because if anyone wants to be my friend i'm all for it. But you truely have to try. I'm no longer putting on a worthless effort......

I love all of my friends to death and I will always always be here if they need me rather its a close friend or a friend from the past. I will never stop loving them....

I believe true Friendship lasts forever......But it takes an effort.....from both people.

I love you all.

Jenna