Is it...

Words hurt.

We all need to think before we speak. Stop. Think. Is it necessary. 

I am nosy. It's a known fact. But my intention is never to hurt someone by talking about them. I  know i've been in the wrong.....I've said stupid stuff, and choose stupid reasons.....I've asked for un-necessary facts. I've dug in places my nose doesn't belong. But atleast I realize my mistakes.....and I atleast try to but be hurtful with my words. Gossip is hurtful! We all know this....We have all had it happen to us and yet we STILL do it! It's like a drug or something. We all want to know stuff we don't NEED to know....We all want to talk about OTHER peoples problems so we don't have to face our own. I don't want to be like that! I want to be known for being a good caring friend not someone that talks trash! Jokes can be hurtful.....and you might never even know it!  STOP. THINK! 

I'm not claiming to be innocent! I admit my wrongs. Let's mature up people...

Do you think it's the christian thing to talk bad about our brother and sister? Is it the best thing we could be doing with our time? Couldn't we be using our words do help others instead of bash others? 

Why are we so quick to judge? Just because a person looks a certain way doesn't mean they are necassarily that way! 

Maybe someone has done some wrong in their past. But Jesus died for our sins....and if they ask for forgiveness......Why can't we just forgive them if they are truly sorry? Is it the christian thing to hold a gudge? No. 

Everyone is differant. I hear people talk about not judging and not hurting and in the next sentence it's like "Oh my gosh Lindsay is weird I would never hang with her" (not a real person I know just an example).

Are we not all children of God? YES WE ARE! Why can't we put our differances aside and atleast try to get along. I know alot of you that haven't even tried to give each other a chance! It makes me sad that i'm friends with alot of people that aren't friends with each other because one or the other finds the other one weird. We all have our problems. Yeah we do.....That means you too. 

Friends. Oh wow. Friends. Like I said in my last blog....I have some amazing friends! I love them to death. But I know some people i thought were my friends.forever, and now I think maybe I was wrong. What happened? I really don't know. I thought I was a good friend. I feel like I'm not good enough. But I want to make it clear it is my life, and if you can't love me for who I am....you never knew me and you never truly loved me. If I am not mature enough, or cool enough then I never was. So why did we do everything together and why did you make it seem like I was your friend. your best friend? I don't know that I will ever know the answer to that one. My life is my life. I don't want to waste it doing stuff that I don't want to do. I may not be going to get a great college degree but that doesn't change who I am. I'm still me.....I'm not suddenly a little girl who is doing nothing with her life. I sometimes wonder.....If certain people can see anything past themselves. Maybe they need to act the way they are to boost their confidence.....But do they not realize how bad it HURTS other people?

Okay....that was really rambling but I just have to get it out before I cry.

Yet again I come back to the point of.....Girl Boy drama.

WHY does teenage....and really life in general seem to ALWAYS revovle around this????? WHY are we taught that as girls we need a guy to make us happy. Many girls are taught this by their own parents....as they watch their mom/dad go through spouses/and gf/bfs etc. A guy(or girl if your a guy) is NOT going to make you happy if your not already happy with your life! It might feel right at first but you can't love someone if you dont love yourself first!!!!!!! You need to build a relationship with God, and stop dwelling on the fact you dont have a special someone. God will bring that someone in your life in his timing...not yours! He knows what he wants for your life. He knows who your suppose to be with and when! Don't rush things. Let things happen slowly. You have your whole life! Guard your heart.....Stop letting it get broke for no reason! Searching for that someone is like saying you don't trust God to bring you that someone! I trust God with my life and I know that when it's the right time I will meet the someone I am suppose to be with. Believe it.

Remember. STOP. THINK.

I love you all.

Jenzi