Beautiful

I realized something in the last couple months that I heard so many times but never felt. God made me beautiful. He didnt make me ugly. I am a child of God, I'm not ugly!!! I was always putting myself down, always saying things that I might have known was not true.....but I still felt. I would say I was fat, when I am actually a pefect weight for my height. I said I was to tall, or my nose was to big! I didnt like my skin, I hated the way my hair never stayed in place, or how "retarded" I looked when I didnt smile. I didnt like my teeth....and the list went on and on. Anything and everything that could be wrong with me, was wrong in my eyes! I'm not sure, what changed my mind exactly. One day, someone told me how totally annoying it was when I put myself down and I dont know WHY that time it got through my head. I had heard my friends say so many times to STOP putting myself down, but this time I really listened, and this person was someone I wasnt really friends with anymore......But when he said it, I kinda just stopped and thought......By putting myself down I am not hurting ANYONE but myself. Everytime I said I was ugly, I was feeling uglier and uglier. I started saying stuff I had heard from my brothers for years, stuff that I should have known was not true!!! I was always telling everyone else how beautiful they were, but I couldnt see that I really was not an ugly person. I still get insecure, but I feel so much prettier! I dont feel ugly!! Sure I'm really tall, but hey.....I'm a girl michael jordan....ok maybe not but still! My nose might seem big to me, but it matches my features. My skin is not perfect by any means, but it could be worse. My teeth are not straight, but they are good enough I never needed braces. I am not fat, at all! I guess all of these things should have been obvious but they never were! I've learned that when my brothers say, YOUR UGLY, I just have to smile and say thanks.......when I take an insult with a sweet reply like thanks your cute too.....it really throws them off. I used to be like crying or id say something equally rude. Okay sometimes I still do, but the insults just dont hurt as bad. You are beautiful, just the way God made you. You dont need to change for anyone!!! When my friends put themselves down, I can easily look at them and see how truly beautiful they are, and I hope they can see the beauty in themselves. I am not going to suddenly turn all egotistic and think im so amazingly pretty, but I can honestly say I dont think i'm ugly anymore, and neither are you!!!!!!!

I hope you know how truly beautiful you are my friend.

God Bless you!!
~Jenna